There are so many amazing artists here on deviantArt. Gahh. Every kind of art imaginable here, too. I'm so envious of those who have real talent; it makes me want to seriously buckle down and take what I'm doing to a more serious level.

Because let's face it, this is my only shot at anything - and I'm not taking it seriously.

My Photoshop class may be not what I was expecting (at ALL!) but still, that doesn't mean I shouldn't be really trying. I've been using Paint Shop Pro for YEARS and now that I'm used to it it sucks changing over - but PS is much more powerful than PSP, once you know how to use it. And of course just one simple course isn't going to make me a master of it.

But if I want my photos to turn out how I need them to, I'm gonna have to go beyond what this course is trying to teach me. And that's okay.

I just feel like I'm starting all over again with college. Which, in a sense, I am. I still have generals to take, for crying out loud... gah. This is gonna be a long road ahead of me. But, at least this time I'm starting out slowly. I'm just so jaded already... two failed attempts at KC and then a failed attempt at GC. All because I didn't know what I wanted. I didn't care.

And here I am back at KC starting all over again. It's daunting. Am I really going to turn 22 this month - and have I really wasted so much time already?